[25 Jan 2004|06:45pm]         A paradox is something that contradicts itself on the surface, but in reality is completely correct. Paradox's are found everywhere in the world, and in turn create a strange perception of life.        The author uses education as it's main example for a paradox. Education was created to help children progress in life, however the way children are educated stifles their creativity and without creativity they can't progress in life. Teachers are attempting to create imagination through order, but order takes away creativity, and therefore in their attempt they are instead taking away the creativity rather than creating it.       Many other aspects to life are also paradoxes. The author also mentions political organization, religion, and even what our country stands for as other paradoxes. For example, America takes people's freedom to give them freedom--our country stands for freedom but most of the African's here were brought here against their will. Many of these paradoxes seem to be a blessing and a curse; meaning they bring good and bad at the same time, creating a paradox.        The author takes paradoxes deeper than concrete ideas such as those previously mentioned. He says progress itself is a paradox, "The art of progress is to preserve order amid change, and to preserve change amid order." But if everything is a paradox, it seems that nothing would be right. If everything seems to break the rules, then what defined the rules? Why aren't the rules just redefined to fit life, rather than life try to fit to the rules?       Life itself is a paradox, because you spend so much time working to create a better life for yourself, but once you get there you die. Everyone works for their life, but does nothing about their death, and in reality nothing in life is for certain, but death is guaranteed. Strike A Pose

[13 Jan 2004|11:06pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Queen "We will rock you" ] Whoa dang, so much has happened since the last time i updated this journal. First of all, i got a boyfriend, and no it's not diego...it's brandon. Which i think is much better than diego now. He's hotter, i've always thought that, and yeah, he's my age and stuff...which actually is kinda important right now because we're both facing the same things in life...like graduation and moving out. But i dunno about that, but damn, Brandon's fucking PERFECT for me. It rocks. Not saying Diego isn't still great, cuz he is. But he's just my friend, and that's how he's gonna stay, especially as long as i'm w/ brandon...which i'm pretty sure is gonna be a LONNNNNNNNNNG ass time. :o) Yeah...long story, i'll write about it later cuz i'm sooo out of it now, i really seriously need a day off ((tomorrow)) and after that i'll be better...but yeah, we're in love <3 Strike A Pose

[02 Jan 2004|09:49pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | Paula Abdul "Cold Hearted Snake" ] I am so bored. Boredom really should've never been invented. It's funny though, 3 months ago my favorite part of my day was this part: the time when i'm online, using livejournal and chatting to people; but now it's my least favorite part of the day. I love work the most. I know that's pathetic, but i do. WELL, that's not completely true. I love hanging out w/ friends and shopping and lots of other things i do more than a usual day of work...but when i get to work w/ Diego, or when it's just lots of my friends and no grouchy mean people, then i LOVE work the most. I think i get to work w/ Diego tomorrow. And Brandon. It should be fun. No Ericka tho, which sucks, because Ericka is prolly my best friend to work w/...even though Yvonne works there and she's one of my best friends ever...she's just not as much fun to work w/ lol, no offense to her...i love her! lol. I want Diego tho. It sucks tho, because he has a lot of days off in the next week meaning i won't get to see him very much and if he doesn't ask me to hang out tomorrow ((which would be a complete miracle)) i won't get to see him for a few days i don't think...which is going to drive me crazy!! :( Anyways, i want Diego. The end. I shouldn't write anymore cuz i know how incredibly annoying it is for a girl to go off about her crush. And that's all i'm doing. So i'll let you go <3 Strike A Pose

I <3 Diego Carbajal [01 Jan 2004|10:53pm] [ mood | impatient ] [ music | MxPx "Do your feet hurt?" ] Today rocked. It was the best day i've had all year, haha (i know, it's lame) Anyways, i'm bored and obsessing over diego, haha. I saw and talked to him a lot today. woohoo. seriously i'm like in love. I want him bad. grr. I think he knows it, i'm pretty sure he does, i think he likes me too, why doesn't he make a move!?!?! i had a perfect opportunity today and i blew it. Well, i didn't do bad, but i'm still not gonna get to see him tomorrow or outside of work. but i think he has tomorrow off, so maybe he'll call me? *crosses fingers and prays* gahh, dude he gave me a ride home today. i saw his car closer and on the inside. bleh, i still think mustangs are waaaay hotter, but it's red and that's definitely my color. ANd it's nice inside. Didn't sound like he had a nice sound system tho, but iw as low so we could talk which was good :) damn tho, i wanted to kiss him soooo bad! we were talking about sex, oolala. hahah, i was trying to give him the impression i'm not as innocent as i look. lol, which is true i'm not. i never thought i'd miss my bad reputation. but, dude, i do. christina wants to meet him. i want to do him. haha jk, well not really but yeah....i want to date him which includes sex...at some point, lol. sweet! lol, i dunno. but grarrr. i want diego, why can't i have him? This sux i'm afraid i'm gonna get shotdown. which would suck. i've never been shot down before. gahhh i want my boy toy! haha that's what christy calls him. anyways...i want diego, the end. Strike A Pose

Out the window there was nothing there to break my fall [28 Dec 2003|09:16pm] [ mood | nervous ] [ music | Lonestar "With Me" ] Having a crush is so mindwrecking, heart wrenching, exciting, scary and most of all makes me so incredibly nervous my stomach feels like it's gonna die from doing so many somersaults. I haven't had a crush in so long, i forgot how giddy it makes a person. But yes, i have a crush. I've liked him for a few weeks...and it's been haunting my every move. Every time i close my eyes i see his smile, every time i fall asleep he's in my dreams, everytime i check my schedules for work i check his too, every day i get to see him i wake up with a smile, every time i do see him i almost burst from joy, everytime we talk or flirt i'm so happy i could pop! So today i finally made my move...i gave him my number. I was so nervous because i didn't know what was gonna happen...my stomach was so dizzy and wow, i really did not know what to do. I was so happy, yet so scared at the same time. However, now all the excitement is gone, except for an occasional burst, because he hasn't called me, and i don't think he will. I gave it to him around 1 today, he got off work at 2...and now it's 9:30. But then my friends say if he does call he wouldn't do it today anyways, so who knows? I hope he does...i've got to work with him on new years eve and if he doesn't call me it'll be so awkward then......*sigh*...sometimes crushes can be such fun, unless they don't work out! Strike A Pose

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